It's all about the kids. Things were lining up in such a way that I felt confident that they would be well provided for, both for their college and also their eventual inheritance.
Well, division of assets and big lawyer fees substantially drained the savings and retirement funds. Child support and alimony have crippled my ability to build a nest egg, much less save for the kids' college. My ex, who has a better standard of living than me, has told the kids she is not saving for their college.
My mother was worth over a million, but she never made gifts to her children and never set up trust funds, so her entire fortune has been handed over to the nursing home. Before long, her money will run out and she'll be on Medicaid. Thank you Alzheimer's. And thank you Mom for being a member if the Hemlock society. That plan worked out well, didn't it? I know how cold that sounds, but I'm dumbfounded by her complete lack of concern around preserving her inheritance. Her wealthy parents set up a trust fund for her before they ended up in the nursing home. You would think she might have thought to do the same for her children, but nope.
Well, that inheritance was not money I would have earned, so easy come easy go on that one. But still, it would gave been nice to be able to pass that on down to my own children.
My identity has been around being a provider, so it pains me that my kids will have to pretty much do it on their own.
As for your mom, she also paid for her care and didn't have her burden laid at the feet of taxpayers so you and your kids would inherit. Something else you can be proud of, not becoming part of the entitled section of the country.
You need to do the best you can and be thankful for what you have instead of worrying about what may have been. Your kids see and your ex wife won't find happiness with money when its all about her.
Being a provider is not doing everything for your kids, its teaching them how to stand on their own feet. That is the true job of the parent. Be there to catch them when they fall, to offer them money when things get a little tight, but teach them to be thankful in all circumstances.
I don't have any advice but I can tell you I can relate to just about everything you said, right down to your mother and those circumstances.
Wish I had more for you than that... guess all I have are understanding and one of those annoying ole girl hugs for you.
But stressing over finances still sucks.
The shock about money still hurts me too. How much I lost during the marriage when he was having affairs, how the retirement account was blown while supporting the year when he had no job (but was having affairs) and how now I can't save very much money.
I honestly just try not to think about it too much. If I project to far into the future, it...well...freaks me out. I do what I can, but I focus on today.
I save what I can, I have money in my kids savings accounts that I haven't touched and add to it every year. It will at least get them started in college, and that is the best I can do. Their Dad? Nothing. He has saved nothing for them.
"For whatever we lose, like a you or a me, it's always ourselves we find in the sea" ee cummings
I feel the same about my wxh. If he had contribute his fair share to our finances, my retirement would be in much better shape. My new plan for retirement is a rich old guy with a heart problem.
My new plan for retirement is a rich old guy with a heart problem.
Somebody wanna hand me a towel so I can wipe the coffee off of my computer?
OIAL, I get your frustration regarding your X not saving for college. Ex-shat makes 6 times what I make and is not putting a dime away for Teslet's future education. All I can do is the best that I can with the resources that I have and take time to teach him to be financially responsible.
It's ok to feel sorry for yourself. Just don't let it define you. Like the others said, the kids can take care of their educations; lots of us do.
I'm working on that with my 18 and 20 year old. DD20 gets it moreso than DS18, but then she always has, lol. But we're getting there.
I feel fortunate that we're doing okay - not "school is completely paid for, money lying around to burn" (wouldn't that be something? ) but bills are all paid, kids are working and going to school, I have a nestegg, and we're making it.
Honestly, it's a far cry from how I was raised, which was an extremely modest family income, I helped pay bills with my part time jobs in high school. So I guess that does affect my frame of reference and perspective.
You're a good dad OIAL.
Above all, be the heroine, not the victim. - Nora Ephron
It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.
- J. K. Rowling
My short marriage to my crazy ex bled me of much of my pre-marital resources. Before my marriage, I had saved and worked very hard and was set up to retire early and comfortably.
But five years of marriage to the lunatic, with his cheating, not working and his crazy business schemes cost me plenty. I was able to get a legal annulment, thank God, so at least I don't have to pay that loser alimony!
I have my own business. After the D, I struggled but was able to buy my own home. I worked so hard to recover from the damage he did financially that I made myself sick. I now have RA. I do believe it has a lot to do with the stress he brought into my life.
My meds cost about $3,000 per month, insurance covers a lot of it, but I still have a huge deductible each year. I'm not able to work like I did before and I may end up disabled. It sucks. Plus my industry has been put in a total upheaval.
That said, I'll take the RA and the financial uncertainty my future holds over being married to a man who cheats, lies, won't work and who came up with crazy and expensive business schemes that cost me a lot so that he could keep me in a state of confusion so I wouldn't figure out what he was really up to.
I'm five years out from my marriage. I see things much differently than I did before. My priorities have changed greatly. And, with everything I'm concerned about, my life is "real" and no more lies!
Good luck to you!
I'm sorry that the nursing home care will eat up your mother's entire estate. While I agree that it's the honorable thing to do, it certainly would have been nice if you or your kids had been gifted some of that money. As I told you before, that happened to my mom-- she was a good daughter who did a lot for her parents, and although they didn't have to give her all of their money, it would have been nice if they had gifted her more to make her life a little bit easier (and my parents are ultra-responsible people who never asked for a dime, so I feel they should have benefited from the estate more than they did).
My dad died when I was a junior in high school so the income dried up with 2 in college, 2 in high school and 1 in grade school...
What happened? We all went to and graduated from college... We worked and borrowed to pay for it... It was the most accomplished feeling I've ever had when I handed in my final paper for college... My college education is what I worked for, earned for and studied for... It defined me...
My mom died 7 years ago... From her estate I got $25,000... I donated it to my high school...
My parents believed in education... They weren't out to leave us anything but the tools and education we needed to be successful on our own...
All 9 of us did it.... We're all self made and successful people... Most of the "trust babies" I know are worthless...
Instill the ability to be self sufficent in your kids and they'll be a lot happier than some punks that live off their parents inheritance...
It's a mental adjustment that I need to make, to accept that my girls are going to have to be largely self-sufficient
Teaching your girls to be self-sufficient is a greater gift than money. So is being the good father that you are.
Sometimes it's better to push someone away...not because you stopped loving them but because you can't take the pain anymore.
I have 4 DD's, one just graduated college with her bachelors, One will graduate next year, another the year after. And 2 years after that the youngest will graduate. She just graduated HS last week.
My X pays nothing toward the girls college. I pay what I can, fill out forms, and put money into accounts in an emergency. I also pay for their phones. They will each have about 1 years worth of tuition in college loans to pay off. They ALL work 2 jobs to pay for college. youngest 2 graduated HS Suma Cum Laude while working those jobs.
They are accomplished, know that they can overcome any obstacle with hard work and perseverance. I hate to say it, but they are more responsible and mature than a lot of their class mates. My girls know how to take care of themselves, while a lot of other kids are looking to their parents to do it.
When awarding scholarships one college told my DD no matter what her grades were (they were very high) She would NOT get a full free ride. The school discovered that kids who got everything paid for them.. didn't take college seriously. Those that had to pay something, were the ones that did better and finished with a 4 year degree. If they owed money, they worked for it and appreciated the fact that it wasn't free. they took pride in their work both in school and at work. So at that school NO ONE gets a free ride... they might come close. But the kid will not gett the last 2 grand paid for.
I found that interesting...