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authenticnow
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Default  Posted: 5:05 PM, May 17th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

No biggie but thought I'd share.

After d-day, BH commented about how he knew something was up because of how much care I'd put into my appearance. Perfect makeup, etc.

So, just now he says to me that I'm wearing more makeup than usual today. (I wear very little makeup in general) I said, 'Really?' He said, 'Yes' and I said, 'It wasn't intentional'.

It made me feel bad because I didn't want him to think anything was up. And I went back to the old neighborhood today to have lunch with a friend, so I wonder if that is related to his remark.

The good news is that after almost 6 years he can mention it and now it's over.

Progress!


Take up your space (and do it well).

"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt."


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heartbroken0903
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Default  Posted: 5:28 PM, May 17th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I occasionally realize I'm doing things that I used to do during the A (along the lines of what you're talking about), and I wonder if XH notices or if it triggers him.

He never mentions anything, but I get a clench in my stomach, wondering if he's reminded or if he's suspicious. Everything I do nowadays is on the up-and-up and there would always be a logical non-A reason for any of my behavior, but it triggers me too just the same.

Thanks for posting this. I'm glad you and your H are able to deal with this stuff openly and let it go.

[This message edited by heartbroken0903 at 5:28 PM, May 17th (Friday)]


Me: WS, 30s
XH: BS, 40s
No kids

Married 2.5 years
D-day 3/6/10
Divorced 5/14/10

Reconciled after divorce

"Someday you'll look back on all these days
And all this pain is gonna be invisible." - Hunter Hayes, "Invisible"


Posts: 2094 | Registered: Mar 2010 | From: the cat's meow
SandAway
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Default  Posted: 7:59 PM, May 17th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I can relate to this.

When my BH and I are out and I put on lipstick, I feel the same way. I don't really wear it, but I like to when we go out at times. Yet, I also feel guilty. I don't put it on to impress anyone, more to make me look nice for him...

Progress is Good!


fWW
BH Tred
M 16yrs
DDay Nov. 2011

Guns don't kill people; Affairs kill people


Posts: 433 | Registered: Dec 2012
Unagie
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Default  Posted: 9:01 PM, May 17th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I wear dresses to my dance class and have been wearing makeup occasionally and my heart clenches sometimes because I'd started dressing up more in the build up to A. A coworker commented on it one day and I said no I was just feeling better about myself recently. I really had been feeling better but for the wrong reasons of external validation. Now I just try to look good externally on a regular basis for me and for SO.

AN I'm happy that you've made progress. It scares me that it might take 6 years but the year since I had A has gone by more quickly then I imagined it would feel. Coming up on 9 months since DDay which feels like its barely been a month.

Sorry I'm all over the place. AN I'm happy for you and your posts always give me hope.


Heartbroken madhatter trying to rebuild

No longer together

Do not let others be your reference for who you see in the mirror.

Stop allowing people to hurt you, because you don't love you enough to walk away.


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authenticnow
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Default  Posted: 9:17 PM, May 17th (Friday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

It's good to feel understood. Thank you all .


Take up your space (and do it well).

"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt."


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Jrazz
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Default  Posted: 1:14 AM, May 18th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

As much as we ALL wish that the triggers would disappear for good someday, I think this is a huge testament to how healthy your communication is now.

I'm sorry you guys had a fleeting bummer. I'm really glad you shared though - it's welcome inspiration.


If you can't learn to enjoy your life when you have problems, you may never enjoy it because we'll always have problems. - Joyce Meyer

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needhelp123
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Default  Posted: 9:26 AM, May 18th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I agree with Jrazz. Thanks for sharing this.


Me: 47 BS: Cheerless (not giving her age)
DDay 12/31/12
30 days of TT WRONG - try 17 months
2 great teenagers
I had a LTA - EA and then PA. Escalated in 2012.
Never Giving Up Hope
The secret of life is to "die before you die" - Eckhart Tolle

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hatefulnow
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Default  Posted: 3:24 PM, May 18th (Saturday), 2013View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

BH here. Hoping my triggers will disappear someday. A remorseful wife helps.

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