I can't express into words how good It felt to come into SI when my life felt in shambles and I was too depressed or ashames to talk about my feelings in much detail with anyone irl.
everytime I log in and read posts or post my own topic, I feel less alone and I gather more perspective(wanted or not )
My last post was about how sad, alone, and desperate I was feeling, and thanks to the amazingingly supportive feedback I got, I was able to truly feel uplifted.
Today I decided that being on my own is a blessing. I get to do what want, and feel good everyday that I I accomplish something new. heres what ive got that makes me feel good about being me right now.
I tuned up my own lawnmower(googled it)
I planted an herb garden
I'm getting interviewed for a better paying postion at my second job(every $ matters)
I'm getting my braces off at the end of summer
I enrolled in two fall classes and am only twelve classes short of my BS
Im happy being single right now :).
I have awesome friends who help me look for my lost cat in the dark in my neighbor's yard, while I cry about how he's too fat to run if car almost hits him.
I'm excited to be a bridesmaid in just two weeks for a great friend, and I'm not worried about taking a date to the wedding.
this is the most comfortable I have felt in two years, maybe longer.
I helped my brother pick out dad's gravemarker and supported his choices, making me feel all big sistery.
I like hanging out with myself
I owe a lot of this state of mind to fellow SIers, who have helped me see things in a different light, and made me remember how good it feels to know that I am strong on my own. Surviving is important, thriving is elegant- Maya Angelou
you is kind, you is smart, you is important