I woke this morning to the mind movie of the original dday, followed by ws walking out. I dream about the A most nights. I just can't see how I'm ever going to get through this, how I'm ever going to be able to trust him again, how I'm ever going to enjoy his touch without thinking wherelse he's been.
When I originally found out about his A I took legal advice. I seem to recall something about having to file within 6mths of dday if you're going to cite adultery. Plus, if this marriage doesn't make it past the A then I want the AP named. It would then be liable for half tbd court costs. Plus I want them
BOTH named for what they did.
So two problems that I need the collective SI brainpower on:
1) To file or not to file? Six months is nearly up!
2) How to move forward with R? In many ways WS has changed his behaviours and he mostly 'gets it' - BUT apparently he doesn't need IC to find out the WHY, as he was just miserable! And he JUST KNOWS that he couldn't do it again.
And he doesn't need to have an STD test as IT told him she'd had one recently as was clear!!!!
He is reluctantly going for an STD tomorrow and making an IC appointment, 'not because he needs to, but because I'm making him'
I really do wonder why I'm bothering. Maybe I'm just better calling it quits?
Your thoughts, as ever, would be most appreciated.
